P,T&B

2010-08-29T01:23:00.001-04:00

I miss you, terribly.

just the way I'm suppose to be

2010-08-28T02:56:00.002-04:00

I miss you.
I miss you
so much
right now.
It hurt to
see you
leave, yes.
But I had
just seen
you. And
it's been
two days
now. & I
want to see
you again.
Pictures
just do not
do it justice
for me.
Seeing you
in person
makes my
heart beat
rush with
all haste.
Never have
I felt so short
of breath, as
I am when I
stand in the
same room
as you are in.
& I hate that
we do not
speak. I hate
to leave you
and know
that I haven't

touched you.
Maybe by
seeing me,
you are touched.
I hope so. But oh,

if I could steal
your lips I
would. I would
take them with
me, everywhere

I go. I just want
to follow you
around. Be where
you are. Go where
you go. I hate when
I cannot see you.
But what's worse
is I never know

when I will see you
again. Hope that it's
soon lingers in my
soul. But doubt

creeps in and I
wonder, if it is so?
Or just an abandoned
hope. I wish you were
reading this. I wish I
could tell you, that I
miss you. But more
than that, I love you.
Please find me again, soon.

And do not hesitate to speak.

2010-05-03T23:32:00.000-04:00

I hate how you made it look like I said something
when I did not! It's a good thing no one knew it
was me you were speaking about. You can never
get dirt on me now. Only try. I will rejoice in that fact.

You are under my skin, & you're under my skin.
And.. that other person. But like a nasty, dirty
scab, I pull you off. I will squeeze out my blood,
and I'm done with you. You're gone, you're over
with, and you never really mattered. Yes, these
are three different people I am speaking about.

I had to get it off my chest, and I did. Without
bashing them or bringing names to any ones
attention. And this is safe. I can't start anything.

So, out with my feelings. Out with you. You're gone
you're over with. I've moved on. I had a good night
tonight. I had many laughs tonight. I won't let you
ruin this day/night for me. The end.

2010-05-03T14:01:00.001-04:00

if they hate me,

they hate me. &

I D O N ' T C A R E .

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2010-04-03T04:33:00.002-04:00

I was going to write a poem.
But then as I began to unleash
myself, I discovered that I had
nothing to say. Yes, I am feeling
rather, a lot right now. But maybe
to speak about it, I should not.
I'm not over whelmed, as much
as I am just weighed down. So,
to do what I normally would,
write about it I should. But I
began to write, and nothing
came. Nothing flowed. So maybe
to speak is not what's right for now.
It is almost three in the morning.
And my body may be saying:
"rest!" So, rest I shall go. I just
wanted to write a poem. But
unfortunately, nothing was
written.

2010-04-03T04:33:00.000-04:00

"Let me see"

I've been thinking of you,
tonight. And I wonder how
you are. I've been thinking
of you. And I wonder where
you are.

So why don't you come down
to here. So I can be near
you. So why don't you come
and see me, because I want
to be where you are. Let me
see your beautiful, Let me
see your beautiful, let me
see your beautiful, face.
Let me see your face.

It's been a while, since I
last saw you. And I loved
how much you made me laugh.
So why don't you come back,
and make me laugh some more?

So why don't you come down
to here. So I can be near
you. So why don't you come
and see me, because I want
to be where you are. Let me
see your beautiful, Let me
see your beautiful, let me
see your beautiful, face.
Let me see your face.

Days are quiet. And nights
are so long. But time flys
by, as I smile and think of
you. As I think of you. As
I think of you. Mmm.

So why don't you come down
to here. So I can be near
you. So why don't you come
and see me, because I want
to be where you are. Let me
see your beautiful, Let me
see your beautiful, let me
see your beautiful, face.
Let me see your face. Face.

I plan to produce this when I
get my mac laptop.

2010-04-03T04:32:00.001-04:00

My Heart is YOURS.

2010-04-03T04:31:00.005-04:00

LOOK
HOW
THEY
SHINE
FOR
YOU.

2010-04-03T04:31:00.001-04:00

Good looks catch the eye,

but a good personality catches the heart.

2010-04-03T04:29:00.001-04:00

I want a Mac Laptop.

Simply because it

holds GarageBand.

The only tool I need

to produce my own

music.

It's not about fame

or fans. Or if I may

one day profit money

from it, but simply

because I hold a desire

to create. And when I

write songs or poems,

their tunes linger in

my thoughts. Causing

my heart to sadden.

Because I cannot

release my ideas

and my fantasies.

I cannot create that

which lingers in side of me.

It is sad that I do not have it.

I desire it so much right now.

So Mac laptop, find me

please, so I may simply

create. For the love of

creating, come to me now!

Somewhere between here & there I lost the near & far between.

2010-04-03T04:25:00.001-04:00

In the silence of my room,
all thoughts seem to sink low.
While flying through the air,
they never let go of the empty
spaces around my soul. Of the
empty spaces around my soul.

Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.

My head against the wall. My chest
rises and falls. And though I am
silent, I am loud. And though I am
still, I am running so far away.
Chasing my thoughts and trying to
make sense of it all. I know I should
give up. Sense has never been my friend
before.

Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.
Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.

The dust particles fall on my cheek.
I hear them laughing at times. But
they are regretful when the tears
begin to fall. And so by me hurting
I've regained back my peace. & by my
sorrow, there is in fact joy.

Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.
Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.

Fingers and toes try to wrap around
my thoughts. But they are too many
for my too few. So mighty big hands
from the kingdom above, collect all
my troubles, collect all my love.

Because somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.
Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.
Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.
Somewhere between here and there
I lost the near and far between.

2010-04-03T04:24:00.001-04:00

I like you.

& I like thinking about you.

a reply to someone's blog post..

2010-04-03T04:23:00.001-04:00

A reply to Moon Face. I thought it was a pretty response and decided to share it. I love my poetic posts of thought.

I've never thought about watching movies when it rains. Usually I just sit on the computer and make graphics. And mostly, write a song about it. I have like 4,000 songs that speak about the rain. And/or mention it somewhere. (well not that many, but you know what I mean. A ridiculously large amount) But that's an interesting idea. If I ever get bored on a rainy day (which is not likely to happen) then I shall watch a movie, and I'll tell you what I watch. If I ever purposely sit down to watch a movie on a rainy day. I love days like that. When you're not expecting it but you wake up to the dim lighted sky and the sound of water trickling on the plants beside your window. & suddenly when you're aware of what you hear, a car rushes by and makes a huge announcement by splashing the water against it's wheels. And tells you that you need to wake up and enjoy the day. Ahh.. Love days like that.

January 19, 2010 7:01 PM

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